Sunday, May 3, 2009
fuuuh~ tday will be finish in a couple of hours and i'm still awake.
i dunno why my feeling can change so easily for several days. smtime i am feeling happy, confuse, angry, going revenge. really unsteady -.- damn it. i can't stay alone or i'll negative thinking too much 'bout anything zzz~ smtime i can't handle myself, i can't resist my tears, i hate myself, and many many moooooooore! i realized, why people arround me can do IT but i can't? why don't you gimme some chance, God? please let me feel what their feel. let me repair all my fault. maybe lotta people thinking "you have great life, cinan!" but i am sure that u only look me from outside. u don't really knw me, know my problems. i just wanna abandon from all my problem!
i'm trying to stop my bad habbit! NEGAVITE THINKING! that's makin' me hurt. makin' me can't breath so easily. makin' me thinking too much till my tears drop. i just wanna let anything flow and being cheerful again. being cinan who always happy like 7 months ago. too many problem now and i can't handle it even though many people supporting me. better i am trying to forget it.
im so thankful to people who always stay arround me and gimme some solution and support!
Thank you fellas! XOXO
i dunno why my feeling can change so easily for several days. smtime i am feeling happy, confuse, angry, going revenge. really unsteady -.- damn it. i can't stay alone or i'll negative thinking too much 'bout anything zzz~ smtime i can't handle myself, i can't resist my tears, i hate myself, and many many moooooooore! i realized, why people arround me can do IT but i can't? why don't you gimme some chance, God? please let me feel what their feel. let me repair all my fault. maybe lotta people thinking "you have great life, cinan!" but i am sure that u only look me from outside. u don't really knw me, know my problems. i just wanna abandon from all my problem!
i'm trying to stop my bad habbit! NEGAVITE THINKING! that's makin' me hurt. makin' me can't breath so easily. makin' me thinking too much till my tears drop. i just wanna let anything flow and being cheerful again. being cinan who always happy like 7 months ago. too many problem now and i can't handle it even though many people supporting me. better i am trying to forget it.
im so thankful to people who always stay arround me and gimme some solution and support!
Thank you fellas! XOXO
what we could have been, 10:48 PM.
